Flawed

Everyone has a value and a core driving factor something that defines who they are as a person and something or someone that keeps you inspired and motivated. Throughout the day there are so many stressors and negative triggers its hard to stay positive and motivated even though you have those values and core drivers. For me I remember being young and saying I love people and I want to be a motivation speaker and I was good at it i had taken a public speaking class and passed the class however as I got older and people started to point out some flaws that I knew were there but I never let stop me because to me they were minor to who I was as a speaker. I spoke with to much energy, my voice annoyed people due to the high pitch, sometimes I can have a bad lisp. As I got older and tried to control these things I started doing what they did to me. I started to pick apart who I was and since I wanted to be careful of what and how things came out of my mouth I eventually started to shut down. I stop talking and having a voice and remained in the background. I started telling myself I am more useful in the background not the front. The problem became so bad that while I spoke I struggle to find my voice and because of my embarrassment most of the things that come out of my mouth it came out awkward. There is always going to be something to stop you from becoming who you are but it is the power of God that helps you to get there despite those who are against you. Our nature is to point out the flaws so they can fix it but what if the flaws is what makes them qualified. As I began to really reflect I noticed that there was a certain time where I spoke with authority and clarity and that is when god spoke through me assuring me that my voice has a purpose and it is not to be silenced.